It all falls down...

When this happens, it sux... I feel like I have no energy to do anything...motivation escapes me at this point... You can take so many jabs to the stomach before you fall to your knees. This is the worst I have felt in a long time, shades of freshman to mid-junior year as an undergrad. Misunderstood... loss of focus and direction.. not knowing where to turn. Kinda like a mouse in a maze, to be cliche for a moment. In the past couple of days, I have noticed a few things that have fueled this slump I am in. Things that weren't much of a bother initially are major irritants that serve as catalyst for much greater stress and anxiety. Sometimes in your life, I guess you may feel a bit invisible, but lately that has been happening a lot. Sometimes I feel like I barely exist or that I am slowly fading away, kinda lost in the background. Kinda like a poorly painted watercolored image. The frame is there, but not much substance. In talking to others, I know that at points they have felt the same, so I am comfortable in sharing or at least committing this to memory in some form or another. I guess getting all this out is therapeutic in a way. Kinda like getting all the last of the mucky muck out when you have a bad cold. Get all the crap out before you even can think about recuperating. I just hope that my recovery happens soon, because this space sucks.