I have such a sick relationship with you. You are sooo always on my mind, it's pathetic. I need to really get a grip before I get hurt, or before I hurt you.

My internet relationship is so twisted. It's the only way I communicate with folks now, cuz I feel so handcuffed by life in general. I'm glad I can have the company of my folks online, but I miss the connection with actual people. I feel like my DNA has been meshed with my CPU and we are one in the same now. No rest for the nerds I tell ya. We get such a raw deal. We wanna be over achievers deep down inside, but we don't realize who we alienate or how much we deny ourselves. It sucks. And I'm sorry. To others, and for my sake as well.

Here's how lame it is. I was in Pak N Save today and I couldn't find some stuff on a grocery list my moms wanted me to hook up for her. Why was I wishing I could push Ctrl and F and type in 'Budford' to find these stupid rolls? Funny, or pathetic. You make the call.

Or how I wish I could type in 'Old Navy' or 'Victoria's Secret' in a search engine, and quickly arrive there. Crud! Wishful thinking, no?

I can't help but wonder how far away, or how close we are to such technology. I'm always frustrated about how this society is so reliant on convenience, and the whole "Give it to me now" mentality. But I can't help but think that I have slowly been groomed into it. I think I just need to go sit in a park for a few hours and turn this thing off. Crud I say! Crud!