I've come to the conclusion that I am gonna either starve to death or have a freezer filled with Red Baron pizza and Swanson's frozen dinners when I'm out on my own. I can't cook for shiznit!!! I'd probably screw up boiled water! What is sad is that my mom is a master cook! I guess the cooking genes skip a generation, which sux! I attempted to make a pancake this morning, which was a complete disaster! It was supposedly really simple to make, but I had to take into consideration "Katherine's Law": If it can go wrong, believe me it will happen! I mixed the batter pretty well (just had to mix water and pancake mix in a bowl -- that's some hard work there!), but when it came to cooking it, big mistake. It stuck to the pan and just looked all bad! Needless to say that it went straight into the garbage. It doesn't help when you have siblings that search for any opportunity to let you have it. Thanks D and Tash for reminding me of how bad I suck in the kitchen! I was trying all I could to keep my mom from coming into the kitchen, but she did anyway, and I knew just why. Moms always are there to try to make things better I guess. I felt hella bad though cuz she has a really bad cold, and she got up just to bail me out of my pancake nightmare. Damn I felt like such a big baby! Such a spoiled brat! So, new item on my to do list: TAKE A COOKING CLASS!

On another note, standardized test SUCK! Both TaeWoo and I confirmed this. I took the GRE the other day, and I may have to take it again. My score was about average I guess, but I'm gonna consult with others before I commit to taking it again. I actually did better on the math part, which was shock, but verbal was not cool. The time just went by so fast for that section, and I totally panicked! I just have to breathe next time I guess. I went to a pre-admissions seminar on Thursday and it seems that the application process will be a lot more stressful than I thought. Asking people for letters, drafting my letters, etc. Calgon, take me away! Can't wait until it's all over.

As for Wednesday's session, it was actually really helpful. Very cleansing. The grief counselor asked a lot of questions that let me get all of my feelings, and tears, all out. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, as it seems that she totally understood everything I was feeling. I totally started bawling when she asked me what I missed most about my grandma. I said her wisdom, and just having her there to talk to and learn from. What I forgot to mention, which I really, really miss, are her hugs. She gave the best ones! Better stop writing all this before I start bawling again. I'm gonna go back in the next couple of months and join a support group. I feel that this is still a work in progress.

On a lighter note, I wanna wish Lan a very happy birthday! Sorry I couldn't make it to your party, but my knees are killing me from rehearsal today. I hope that you had a wonderful day, and I have to hook you up on Friday with lunch or dinner. That's all for now. How Berkeley Can You Be is tomorrow, so that should be lots of fun. Just please don't have us anywhere near the nudists. PLEASE!!!!!!!