Give it a Name

So today, MACY, JB and I were talking about names. Funny stuff, they forgot my name was Katherine. Gah! Where is the love folks?!?! I then realized tho, hardly anyone calls or knows me as that. In many instances I am Kat, KB, Kathy, Katrina, Katherini, Chamise (sp?), but hardly Katherine. Go figure. I remember when I was a kid, I really didn't like my name. Well, there were some others that helped me with that sentiment as well. C'mon I guess, how many girls in the hood have a name like mine? When I was in the second grade, my classmates were hell bent on calling me by my middle name. When my mom heard them calling me this, she was pissssssed. Yikes! I don't think it was only the name thing, just that she didn't want me to be easily conformed by folks I suppose. The things you think you know all about as a youngster.

You're in Good Hands

Switching gears, social support is a must! Ana is a rock, and is my homegirl. We both can vent to each other without guilt, which is a blessing in disguise. When my esteem takes huge blows, I mean really big ones, she reminds me about the positives that you tend to devalue we things get shitty. Funny how that happens eh?

The Gremlin's cat lady ain't got shit on me!!!

I've come to realize that I really, really, really should have taken advantage of my youth. I'm old man! Grrrrrrrr! This is nooooo fun dude, on the reals. I thought after I served my time at UCB, things would be all good, in terms of kickin it and chillin with your folks. Ha! Man, wasn't I dillusional. This sucks man! I am destined to try to relive my undergrad in the Fall. I wanna catch a few Cal Football games, sit in the student section and whatnot. Chunk rocks at the $tanfurd brats... yeah, that's the life.

Table for One :(
So today I found that I am the only single mofo in my cohort... dayum, I am an old maid. Even my boss is like "Have you heard of eHarmony?" Joy for joy. Could the words "lonesome loser" be any bigger on my forehead?!?!

Electro-Rock Unite!
I wish I could learn to breakdance. To bad my body doesn't agree at times. Still feeling the effects of the Up-rocks and 6-steps. Thanks Jenny-kins for not breaking my knees like I asked. You just broke my ass instead. :P

Yo, on the real son, back that shit up!

I just wrote a bomb ass blog, but it just got deleted. Just what I need right now. Whoop-di-doo!

I am not in a good space right now. Point blank. That's just how it is. April just cannot end fast enough. I get the sense that I am not the only one, as I know there are some of my other peeps going through their respective shit storms as well (please know that I am here). With the stuff that I am going through, I find myself constantly trying to sustain (I am confident that I can do that now, and that it's ok). Poopie spaces like these are weird. You don't wanna be like "yo, here is all my shit...blah di blahh blah!" Yet you don't wanna act like nothing is wrong. Bipolar city baby. I just really need to be around my core peeps right now. I'm truly sorry to the new peeps or the folks that I don't know to well, but that's just how it is for me right now at least. I'll just be so glad when it's all over. I miss laughing on a 24/7 basis.