To tha uh, tick tock and ya don't stop...

It's funny. For quite a bit of time, the whole family thing has been on my brain. I guess as I keep advancing in age, it becomes more and more pressing. I remember when I was younger, like around 16 or so, I thought that my whole family track would be like my mom. At this point, I'm supposed to have two kids... oh, not to mention be married, with a nice house, and finishing up my residency to be an MD. Like I said, it's funny. I guess the whole fam thing has been on my brain because a lot of my friends have either just had lil' ones, or they are on the way. *sigh* As I putter around in the E. Honda, I think. "What kinda mom will I be like?" A combo of my grandma and mom? I hope so. They were great. Although we struggled here and there, ultimately I cannot complain. I think me and sibs turned out fine. They taught us so much when we were young, and I hope that I can remember all the elements of their rearing of us once the time arises for me to do the same. Again *sigh*. I was in Target the other day and made a little small talk with the cashier. She was telling me that she was so tired because she was up all night with her 2 month old. Wowsers. All night cryin? Poop? Midnight feedings???? *shudder* But the whole motherhood stuff seems like an experience to say the least. I must say that I am looking forward to it. (Dayum, did I just say that?!?!). It'll be fun teaching them how to read, going to the park to play, playing in finger paints, etc. In terms of motherhood, the whole adolescence thing doesn't seem so bad. I'll just have to watch out for the teenage years (Dayum, those still have to happen, huh?). I was presenting at a high school the other day, and my goodness, what can I say? My daughters will wear burqas, and their dad will lay the smack down on any of these lil' crumb snatchers that come around the way... Hahaha. As I keep going along my career path, I still try to keep like in perspective and what I want out of it. Having a family will be key. Maybe I'll procreate (or at least like to) before I hit 30. So as they grow, hopefully I'll still have enough energy to hang. Ha! All this planning and preparation. As I said at the beginning, it's funny.

Weird ass dream...
Blogger is down, so I figured I'd submit the entry here before I get side-tracked and forget what the hell I was thinking.
Dayum, the other day I had a weird ass dream. I dreamt I got shot! What the hell?!?! I dunno where I was, but all of a sudden, I looked down at my stomach and saw that I was injured. In the dream, I was not hurt or bleeding, but I could tell I had some kind of pained look on my face as I was trying to get some help. I ran into a building and saw hella people I knew. I thought, dayum, somebody is gonna help me. I see these folks like getting a make-shift bed together on a table or something, and one person I knew was crying. But you know what? (and I told you this dream was weird). They weren't doing this to help me! They were doing this for somebody else! That wasn't even shot!Huh?!?! Shizer! One person did help to remove the bullet (dayum, it seems even more weird to recount this shit, but oh well). Then I woke up.
Great. How come I can't have dreams about being rich? Or some other nice ass outcome? Oh well, I searched to see what my dream meant, and this is what I got from MSN's Dream Dictionary
Gun
1. In Freudian dream analysis, a symbol for physical passion. If the dreamer is the one doing the shooting, then he is consciously or unconsciously searching for a partner. If the dreamer is the one being shot, someone out there feels desire for him.2. The release, or need for release, of pent-up anger. Again, if the dreamer is doing the shooting, she needs to control her temper and find a positive way to release her anger. If she is the victim, then someone is angry with her.3. Something important coming up, implying a need to "get out the big guns."Astrological parallel: Mars/Uranus combinations.Tarot parallel: The Tower.
Ok... I'm not a him, but this analysis makes the dream not so bad.... hehe. So somebody has the hots for me??? Woohoo! =) Dayum, but who? Nice. My actionless life even plagues my dreams. Ok, I feel sad and confused again... =(