I have such a sick relationship with you. You are sooo always on my mind, it's pathetic. I need to really get a grip before I get hurt, or before I hurt you.

My internet relationship is so twisted. It's the only way I communicate with folks now, cuz I feel so handcuffed by life in general. I'm glad I can have the company of my folks online, but I miss the connection with actual people. I feel like my DNA has been meshed with my CPU and we are one in the same now. No rest for the nerds I tell ya. We get such a raw deal. We wanna be over achievers deep down inside, but we don't realize who we alienate or how much we deny ourselves. It sucks. And I'm sorry. To others, and for my sake as well.

Here's how lame it is. I was in Pak N Save today and I couldn't find some stuff on a grocery list my moms wanted me to hook up for her. Why was I wishing I could push Ctrl and F and type in 'Budford' to find these stupid rolls? Funny, or pathetic. You make the call.

Or how I wish I could type in 'Old Navy' or 'Victoria's Secret' in a search engine, and quickly arrive there. Crud! Wishful thinking, no?

I can't help but wonder how far away, or how close we are to such technology. I'm always frustrated about how this society is so reliant on convenience, and the whole "Give it to me now" mentality. But I can't help but think that I have slowly been groomed into it. I think I just need to go sit in a park for a few hours and turn this thing off. Crud I say! Crud!

An amazing past couple of days :)

I can't believe I ran into one of my former students the other day. It's so ironic because I had just crossed one of his papers. He's finishing up his final year in film studies at UCB. Man, I feel even older! LOL! He is so funny and I'm so glad I ran into him. When he was my student, he promised to make a film about me. Can't wait until it debuts at Cannes :)
Ana, you are the best! The other day, I had the opportunity to watch her cook. And she said she didn't have any skills..haha!
I love public health! I'm learning so much as I go along, and it's so gratifying. I'm so happy to do what I do, and to be going in the direction I am. I am so thankful to know such awesome people, from my cohort, work, and beyond. Amazing. I did so much networking today and it was awesome. This experience helps validate things that I know and restores my confidence even more. While at the same time allows me to learn and grow. I don't think I've ever felt so confident in my life. Like I can look someone in the face while I am talking. My tongue doesn't get so tied up. My voice doesn't crack or fail. But I'm still a work in progress. I'm glad I have folks that I can lean on. Family and friends. Colleagues and companions.
Thanks Irene from dropping science with me again. We are so gonna change the world, you wait and see.